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Musings, Life, Nostalgia (2016)

paranoia strikes.

im gonna start locking entries again. no special/lame/wierd reason for this announcement.

well, okay. maybe coz i want to make myself a new friends-only banner.. hahahaha. this blog is partially friends only feel free to add me up if i know you or just leave a comment for this entry if you just dropped by to say hi. i cant keep up with this dead-hour paranoia (top it off with lots of heartbreaking melodies. perfect, right?)

new entries are gonna be kept public for a while then im gonna lock em after. haha paimportante..dont worry my dear nonlj friends,most picture posts are public anyway so no worries :)
(hahah nag-announce pa. as if naman may ibang nagbabasa ng bloggas ko)

Nursing a nurse

Being stuck in bed nursing a horrible flu isn't on my ideal Thursday list.

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So far, so good.

I've got down time while my friends recharge for partying in Reykjavik later with some people we've met during the tour.

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This blog has been around since 2003, way before voyeurism became a norm and narcissism has sky rocketed in society. 14 years ago, I was a teenager with raging hormones, emotional and dependent on my modem's transition from landline to slow prepaid internet. I wrote about almost everything - rants about parents, the latest gadgets, trip with friends and how I wanted to grow up badly and become free of my parents' shackles. Now I'm 29, a citizen of a country I used to be foreign to, employed and living independently and co-dependently with a person dear to me. I have grown up and have become wiser with my choices (at least I would like to believe so). I'm not a spoiled daddy's girl anymore and I can confidently say my choices in life have definitely made me a stronger person. I've created quite a strong barrier between my thoughts and the words I speak. Same as the things people see of my life and what actually happens in those moments. Privacy is now a precious commodity and being in the public eye diminishes the value of life experiences. There will always be content more interesting than yours or more talked about than yours but that doesn't mean it is of any less worth. It may earn you more money though if you're into that sort of thing. Yes, in 2016 blogging or vlogging can now be considered a profession and a good source of income.

So here I am, 5 Years after my last annual update. (last one I did was in 2011). A lot might have changed since I first moved to London and experienced the painstaking life of an overseas worker. I get less excited about new experiences but nonetheless fascinated by what they bring. So here's a little catch up for us, just in case I forget to update this again in the next 5 years. Happy Reading!

What did you do in 2016 that you'd never done before?

move out of my (then) comfort zone, move in with a boy (!), live and work in the big smoke, do locum jobs in different places with different specialities, change jobs twice in a year, do long drives in England, change citizenship. Yes, a lot has happened this year!

Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
don't think I made one? I just wanted 2015 to end. lol

Did anyone close to you give birth?
- not in 2016?

Did anyone close to you die?
- thankfully, none.

What countries did you visit?
- Italy just before the year ended. Just that I think. 2016 was more of a transition period for me.

What would you like to have in 2017 that you lacked in 2016?

-definitely more income. lol! moving into town is expensive. a mortgage as well if at all possible. (adulting!)

What date from 2016 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

to be honest, most of 2016 was a blur. so many things happened and there isn't really one date that stands out.

What was your biggest achievement of the year?

moved in with Jay and got settled in our own little nook - manage bills, pay for my car, have a proper experience of how it is to be an adult.

What was your biggest failure?

- burning bridges

Did you suffer illness or injury?
- 2 accidents while riding a bicycle to and from work! slamming into a bush of stinging nettles and suffering it's effects for a week. other than that, none.

What was the best thing you bought?

- a bike! best mode of transport to and from work - stress relieves and fitness enhancer! actually, it's just an excuse for me to eat more as I exercise everyday lol.

Where did most of your money go?


What did you get really, really, really excited about?
moving into our new house and building it into our home =)

What song(s) will always remind you of 2016?

I had to check my spotify playlist for this. okay:
Adele - All I Ask
One Dance - Drake
Stitches - Shawn Mendez - Jay and I belt out to this song with the oddest set of words. lol

basically everything on the UK top 50 for 2016. easy.

Compared to this time last year, are you:
a. happier or sadder? -- slightly happiers =)
b. thinner or fatter? -- fatter. fattest i've been since.
c. richer or poorer? -- it's a downward slope from here lovey. lol. paying off bills is a bummer.

What do you wish you'd done more?
read books. I used to be an avid fan of the bookshops but i've stopped going since I've moved to London. I've got books I've bought in 2010 that I haven't read. shame on me really.
exercise properly and eat more vegetables.

What do you wish you'd done less of?
stress about things I can't do anything about. Inevitable things such as Insurance payments or Electric savings and the inflating housing market. I mean, really what can I do about it?

What was your favorite TV program?
The Walking Dead, hands down.

Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?

What was the best book you read?
Like I said, I should've read more books. the last one I read was my Atlas of Peri Op Practice to refresh myself with Cardiac surgery as I've recently started doing this.

What was your greatest musical discovery?
nothing extra special this year? I've quit my spotify account and have cared less about what the independent music scene has got to offer.

What did you want and get?
- a senior post in Great Ormond Street. really is the pinnacle of my career so far.

What was your favorite film of this year?
Dirty Grandpa. lol

What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
29. I don't remember but I was off from work. Jay and I did a joint celebration and drove up to York/Sheffield and the Peak District.

What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
better deals for my monthly bills!

How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2011?
functional. If it's dry from my laundry load, I will wear it.

What kept you sane?
KFC Krushems and Bubble Tea.

Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

don't think I've fancied anyone in showbiz apart from my old flame Justin Timberlake.

Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2016:

it's difficult to walk back on burnt bridges.

life will unfold as it should. stressing never does you any good.

What was the nicest thing someone told you about yourself
He loves me. iiii.

it still exists!!!

wow. it is a bit surprising to find out that this lj account still exists. it's been around for nearly 12 years and if i would compare this to an actual relationship, it would be the type that has survived leaps, bounds, long distance and plateaus. sadly, i have no real life equivalent to this relationship :p

i'll think of something sensible to write for my next post. reviving this blog has to be awesome enough to makeup for 2 years of inactivity

till the next one


im feeling extremely homesick and extremely heartbroken =(

Had an awesome experience with the young adult community of Hillsong again tonight. Praise and Worship was brilliant as always (that sounded so bri-ish mwahaha) got to meet a couple of people, also had some short yet great encounters with people i've met before. Sooo looking forward to sunday again for Church and some more socializing activities.

this by far is the greatest addiction i've been in to. =)


im leaving for new york on monday (yaaaaaaaaaaaay!!!!!!) so excited to be all tourist-y again and take loads and loads and LOADS of pictures with ate chay. then wednesday im flying to texas to meet tita apple and my cousins whom i have never met in person. then back to nyc again then hopefully, we'll have a quick trip to new jersey for some wise spending.

didnt imagine america to be that massive though. the flight going to texas from nyc will take 4 hours. the flight from london to nyc is only 6 hours. whuddup with that?

after my great US adventure, i only have to wait 6 more weeks and im back to manila's loving arms again. then im gonna embark on a short singapore trip with ellyvenelly bestfriend extraordinaire..then im gonna spend new year's with family in HongKong. life is just working out pretty well for me this year. I have Jesus to thank for that. it's true that if you give to God what's His, all blessings come your way, pressed down, shaking together and running over. =)

on a personal note =)
3 years ago, i decided to have a personal relationship with Jesus through a Hillsong Concert in Manila (Philippines) i can clearly remember how ALIVE i felt that time i was singing along, raising my hands in worship, crying non stop because i felt touched by the spirit..

2 years later, i moved to London for work and found a Hillsong Trailer Bus parked (by God's grace) as i was walking aimlessly with friends along tottenham court road. i knew in my heart I had to find a reason why it was there so i asked my friends to walk around the place to look for any sign that there was something Hillsong-y that was happening and then..my friend found the Hillsong Church sign at the Dominion Theatre.

November 7 2010, i came to Hillsong Church London for the very first time. i was determined to go, even if i was on my own and the Church is far from where i live. i was lost..and totally devastated from so many bad things that have happened to me that time (just had a bad breakup, had terrible homesickness, was struggling to start a life of my own in a different country etc). I went in the auditorium and a big sign that said "WELCOME HOME" graced my eyes. i knew from then on that i was in for something interesting.

Praise and Worship was AMAZING. i didnt normally lift my hands during worship at our church in manila as i was too conscious of the people around me. That time, i felt so liberated from consciousness. i was on my own, in a place where no one knew who i was, what i've done wrong, or what achievements i've had in the past. i was there for God, for myself, for my renewed relationship with Him.

the message that sunday was about the questions we often ask God. the message was so timely because i really felt like i had to find an answer., to know what to do next after making so many bad decisions. i felt like the message was delivered specifically for my query. I asked and God answered. that was it. i knew i had to keep coming back. I raised my hand when they did the altar call. with confidence, i claimed that i needed God in my life..that i had to be under His guidance again.

a girl approached me after service..gave me a new testament bible in magazine form and asked me to join her and the young adult people for lunch. i accepted her invite and i got to meet so many people who also went to Church for the very first time.

I've been going to Hillsong Church London ever since and my life has never been the same. Just recently, i've decided to join the group of young adults again and i am having a great time talking to them. they're all so nice even if i dont know most of their names . they just made me feel really welcome to the group as if we've been friends for a really long time.

Despite the difficulties of living far from my family, i know that i have found my home here at Hillsong =)

Thank You Lord for everything..for my personal relationship with You, for a great job, for financial stability, for my safe family in Manila, a comfortable life and for the Hillsong Community (young adults. yay!) who never cease to amaze me with their kindess and hospitality. I LOVE CHURCH!!!!!

Beee day!
It's my first birthday away from home. 24 years in this lifetime nd i still feel like i havent learned anything valuable.. I've been through the worst kind of crap any person can imagine happen to a girl my age and yet i feel like none of those experiences have actually made an impact on who i am. Nothing has changed. The years that have passed are just insignificant numbers on a calendar. Nothing more. Well okay I may have changed a little because im forced to..but a great part of me still wants to hold on to my immature and careless nature. I miss having no responsibilities..i miss being not responsible for myself. although i am incredibly grateful for all the blessings thrown upon me..i still cant help but feel that i need some more.. I still have a lot of wants..things i dont want to claim without going through any hard time. I guess it's just part of human nature not to be content with anything..right? I wished for my own bed, i got a whole room then i got a flat..and yet it still isnt enough for me. I used to live off 50 quid a week during my first few months here in london and now that i've been receiving more than that, it still feels like what i have now will never be enough. How did i manage to live then and feel like i had more than what i needed? Twenty-four. Hehe..most of the people i know here already want to settle down..and here i am still greatly concerned with the newest collection of bags in john lewis, or the biggest bargains in all the leading stores. I refuse to grow old. It may have more setbacks than advantages but for the moment, it makes me happy..and i dont need any other person's approval of it. Happy birthday me!!

To love. To be loved. To never forget your own insignificance. To never get used to the unspeakable violence and the vulgar disparity of life around you. To seek joy in the saddest places. To pursue beauty to its lair. To never simplify what is complicated or complicate what is simple. To respect strength, never power. Above all, to watch. To try and understand. To never look away. And never, never, to forget.


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